I'm about to lose my mind

I'm about to lose my mind job. Well, I have a couple of days before that happens, but that is making me lose my mind. The hospital I work for is doing a "staff reduction." They are letting a lot of people go, and I have been here the least time in my department. Two of the people in our radiology department were let go yesterday, and they have been here longer than me. I am pretty sure they are only keeping me here because I'm working all weekend and they were afraid I'd call in if they told me yesterday, so they're waiting until Monday.

I guess that's what really makes me mad about the whole thing. Our new boss told me he wanted me to come in Monday morning at 9:30. To let me know what's going to be going on. So I have to arrange for a babysitter to come watch my son so they can "let me go," instead of him just having the decency to tell me yesterday. It's very frustrating.

I know several people that I graduated with who still do not have jobs in our field. The market is flooded with techs. I'm thankful for the time that I have had this job, and I'm glad that I have experience on my resume now, but that really isn't making me feel better at the moment. Luckily I am going back to school for my CT license next month, and it's only a semester so hopefully after I get my license in December or January I will be able to find a job...

But what am I going to do until then? Of course I'm going to file for unemployment, but I'm assuming that takes awhile. Plus I will feel like a bum. I have to keep Parker in school, if I don't he will lose his place and he does so well and loves it, I can't take him out of there. Not to mention he will have to go there when I go to clinicals. Luckily I only have to go 16 hours a week. That's 2 days a week paying for gas to drive to a work place in which I will not be getting paid. I thought I was done with that. Guess not.

I'm sorry this post is so negative, but it's where I'm at right now. I know it's not the end of the world, I know it will all work out in the end, but those phrases are really offering no comfort right now. The only thing offering comfort is this right here...