Friday, July 22, 2011

How I'm Doin

So I know a lot of people are wondering how I'm doing, and the truth is, I'm doing great. I lost my job on Monday, and since then I have had 3 interviews. God has shown me over this past week that I need to put my life in his hands, because He has everything under control. Always. I am blessed and I know it. That doesn't mean I don't have stress, as much as I try not to worry about things I do. However, I know He has never put me in a situation that I can't handle, and I can hardly belive He is going to start now.

Today was pretty productive for me. I had a bunch of junk laying around in my computer room and I got rid of it ALL! I also got rid of all my old clothes that I've been keeping in totes for who knows how long! Some of the stuff was from high school, and I'm not kidding. I have issues with letting things go lol. After I cleaned everything up I did some rearranging. In the computer room I set up a table for studying/scrapbooking. Plus whatever other project I wanna try to tackle now that I am "unemployed." I will say that I don't like that title. In fact, I feel like I do more now than I did when I had a job. As much as I love being a stay-at-home mommy right now, it's tough work.

Parker is still doing well with potty training, although he had school today so he didn't go on the potty ALL DAY (until he got home) on the potty. He has been going at least 6 times a day, so that is quite a set back. I don't know if they just don't try at school with him, because they say they do, but it seems odd that he will do it at home and not there. By the way, the reason he still goes to school on Monday & Tuesday afternoons and all day Friday is because I start school in a few weeks and we have to keep him in to hold his spot. Plus, he loves school and I didn't want to have to pull him out of his routine so he goes to school and I clean and do laundry. =)

This was taken Wednesday around noon. We ran outta room for stickers on Tues lol

Saying Goodbye to Good Friends

Wednesday we had to say goodbye to our friends Brandy & Evelyn. They are moving the SC, and why we were sad to say goodbye we always want what is best for our friends, and sometimes that involves moving away from this area. We did have a blast at the pool, though! It's crazy how much our little ones have grown since our first playdates last spring.

Evelyn, Brynleigh, Parker

Logan, Brynleigh & Parker

Logan & Parker

Evelyn- We will miss you =)

 Back Then...

Saturday, July 16, 2011

Paper Mama Challenge: B&W

My Sweet Angel having a serious thought at the park

The Paper Mama

Play time and Potty time

This past week we went to meet our besties at the park. Even though it started to get hot pretty fast we had so much fun.

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When the boys started getting sweaty we decided we would hit up Steak N' Shake. It was quite delicious. Then we went to the mall. In the mall they have a toy store that has a train table for kids to play at and Parker & Carder had a blast. It was so much fun to watch them play... in the air conditioning =)

In other news, we are going to start full on potty training starting Monday. I have been working with him this past week and it was going really well, until I came back to work yesterday. My goal is to have him potty trained before Autumn, I hope that is realistic.

The potty prize basket

In his big boy training pants

I'm about to lose my mind

I'm about to lose my mind job. Well, I have a couple of days before that happens, but that is making me lose my mind. The hospital I work for is doing a "staff reduction." They are letting a lot of people go, and I have been here the least time in my department. Two of the people in our radiology department were let go yesterday, and they have been here longer than me. I am pretty sure they are only keeping me here because I'm working all weekend and they were afraid I'd call in if they told me yesterday, so they're waiting until Monday.

I guess that's what really makes me mad about the whole thing. Our new boss told me he wanted me to come in Monday morning at 9:30. To let me know what's going to be going on. So I have to arrange for a babysitter to come watch my son so they can "let me go," instead of him just having the decency to tell me yesterday. It's very frustrating.

I know several people that I graduated with who still do not have jobs in our field. The market is flooded with techs. I'm thankful for the time that I have had this job, and I'm glad that I have experience on my resume now, but that really isn't making me feel better at the moment. Luckily I am going back to school for my CT license next month, and it's only a semester so hopefully after I get my license in December or January I will be able to find a job...

But what am I going to do until then? Of course I'm going to file for unemployment, but I'm assuming that takes awhile. Plus I will feel like a bum. I have to keep Parker in school, if I don't he will lose his place and he does so well and loves it, I can't take him out of there. Not to mention he will have to go there when I go to clinicals. Luckily I only have to go 16 hours a week. That's 2 days a week paying for gas to drive to a work place in which I will not be getting paid. I thought I was done with that. Guess not.

I'm sorry this post is so negative, but it's where I'm at right now. I know it's not the end of the world, I know it will all work out in the end, but those phrases are really offering no comfort right now. The only thing offering comfort is this right here...

Saturday, July 9, 2011

The long awaited Florida Post...

So I figured since we've been back from Florida for almost a month now, I should probably post about our trip. I honestly had more fun than I have ever had. I love the ocean, and so does Parker.

Having friends and family with us was a great bonus, but I think we would've been fine if it had just been the two of us. Relaxing on the beach. Okay, so maybe it wasn't that relaxing. Let's be honest, anytime you get a 18 month old around water you are not relaxed. He loves water and swimming as much as I do, but unfortunately he doesn't know his own boundaries. He wishes I would just let go of him and let him do his own thing. Ha, he doesn't know me very well. So most of our vacation was spent with me chasing my little man, and loving every minute of it.

We went to shell island, it was so much fun. I got to snorkel for the first time, and I was surprised by how much I enjoyed it. Of course while I snorkeled my mom gave Parker boogie boarding lessons...

If you've never been to Fudpuckers and you get the opportunity, go. We had a blast there, you get to see live alligators and we even held one. Parker kept hugging and cuddling with it, my little no-fear boy.

It was really hot in Florida. I have a very high tolerance for heat, I could lounge in the sun all day no problem. Parker, however, didn't inherit that trait and he can get overheated very easily. We didn't actually know this until we were in Florida. He got sick for a couple of days, it was mostly allergies but his little cheeks were red and he was up all night coughing, not very much fun. Luckily after some benadryl and 2 days mostly indoors, he was in good shape.

Our last day in Florida we went to eat at the Crab Trap. If you ever go to Destin, you have to go there. It's right on the beach and they have amazing food.

And finally, we all had to take group pictures on the beach. Well, I took them with the help of Mr. Tripid. =) I think they turned out pretty good...

And finally, I'll leave you with one of my favorite pictures of them all...

Saturday, July 2, 2011

The Past Can Hurt

"Ohhh yes, the past can hurt. But the way I see it, you can either run from it, or... learn from it."-Rafiki

It's funny the lessons you learn by watching old Disney movies. Maybe you catch on as a child, maybe you don't. But watching these movies as an adult, now that I have a child of my own, brings a whole new meaning to these movies. I find myself crying at different parts than before, seeing humor in little things I had never noticed. Being a mom does not define who I am, but it most definitely had a part in who I have become.

When you think about it, what does it help to run from your past? Afterall, your past has brought you where you are today. If not for my past, I might not be in the profession I am in, I might not have such a great job. I might not have the friends I adore. I might not have my baby boy. So why run from something that ultimately gave you such great things...

Because sometimes I need want to forget. It's easier not to think about it. If you would've asked me 5 years ago where I would be in 5 years from now, would this be my answer? Ha. Not quite. But I'm happy. I'm actually really happy, so I can't forget and I can't run. I have to learn from the mistakes I've made, and create a better future for myself and Parker. I think I'm well on my way to doing just that.